Fatigue from telling yourself the same old, negative bullshit that put you down.
I used to put down affirmations, judging them to be guru nonsense that are totally fake and unrealistic.
It's not real.
It was pure denial of what's in front of you.
It was always more realistic to be negative so as to adjust one's expectations of how life should be like i.e. tough as hell.
But I kind of shifted a little.
No, I wasn't bought over by some course or some life coach feeding me some cringey crap.
I just got tired from the same shit going over and over in my head.
So I figured, why not tweak it a little? There's no harm in that.
And that's that.
I can be a little kinder to myself since I am not a serial killer or something.